Sometimes I wish the heart/love could be as simple and plain as what it shown above. I do not need nice good car, I do need you to be loaded. All I need was some little time from you or perhaps of you..

I know, I know, I know..
Whatever it is it seems nonsensical. Money is everything, w/o money you can't survive.. W/o money you can't even survive that tiny winy love. You have your point, I hear you, I get it. That's that kind of life you mean right and I have to suck it up for choosing this cause for so from the start I knew all this situation/feeling would cause.

I would just plainly envy ppl who get to spend time with their beloved love on just one day lying ard doing nothing.. But it seems so difficult on my end even a simple dinner. I have to wait everyday, thinking, hoping and I know, I understand WHY if it don't.
WORK, BUSY, for FUTURE.

With all this I totally understand but it just those sour thingy inside. I don't know why. Probably for all I could say, I'm a human being afterall.

You know dear diary, now I understand that rly precious 8hrs per week rly mean so much to me that I don't even bear to go home, seriously.

You feel me? I doubt so.

Good night.